I recently posted something on my facebook profile, and I thought it was important to post it here, because to me it is a major issue for Christians today. In reality, it is probably not a black and white issue, but more like a scale, where we can tend towards one or the other, and move either way as we mature or digress. Anyway, here is the statement:
We need a change in mindset. We need to allow God to shape and order our lives in accordance with His eternal purpose, instead of trying to incorporate God into our life as it is. He is calling us to so much more than we can even imagine, but we have to open our hearts to that greater calling, and be willing to go where the grass doesn’t appear green.
I want to give some background behind this statement, and how it has applied to my life:
Three years ago I was working as an employed doctor, in a hospital owned practice, employed by an organization that was more concerned about money than patient care. I became frustrated, and finally tired of fighting the system and decided that something had to change. I had multiple options, and at one point decided to quit Family Medicine altogether, and work full-time in the ER. It would pay better, require less hours, and thus result in a better quality of life for me and my family. There was a part of me that didn’t want to do that, because the thing I love most about medicine is the relational aspect of it, and you lose this in the Emergency Room.
During this time, my wife and I sought direction from the Lord. I wanted my life to be in line with His plan, and this was obviously a major life decision. One night, while we were lounging in our jacuzzi tub, the answer came. I was to take part of the building we had just procured for our other business, and turn it into a clinic and practice out of that. Doing this would mean I would have to work without call coverage, and basically be on call 24/7. It would also require that I not only work full-time for the clinic, but that I would also have to work full-time in the ER, in order to pay the bills. In November of 2007 I started working in the ER in Dodge City, KS, after not working in any ER for almost 2 1/2 years. In January I quit my job and by late February my clinic was open. It has been 2 1/2 years now since the opening. I still do not draw a salary, I still work in the ER, but my clinic is growing and we are nearing the fruition of our hard work. Now, the point here is not to brag about how hard I work, as I am only able to do it by His grace, and there were many other reasons He had me take this path (one of which was to reveal and overcome what turned out to be a pretty severe anxiety problem. God is efficient in His working!). The point I am making is that I could’ve taken the path that made sense from a natural perspective. I could’ve made more money and had more time with my family by changing to ER work exclusively. However, the Lord had other plans, and thus I embarked on what has been the greatest journey of my life. During this time I learned a lot about myself, learned a lot about Him, and have learned more about faith than I ever thought I would. I will, by the way, get to Part 2 on faith, hopefully soon. The journey has been lonely to a certain extent, because the positions I have taken on issues in the community pertaining to healthcare have been unpopular, so we have been at odds with the powers that be, and even had lies spread about us in the community. It turned out that the right path was the harder path, small surprise given what we see from Christ’s example.
So, this brings me to my statement. The Lord brought me to a jump-off point in my walk with Him. He brought me to a place where I had to make a decision to follow His direction, or to choose to follow conventional wisdom and do what seemed right to me. By His grace I chose to follow Him, in a way radically different than I had ever followed Him before. It required continued, implicit trust in His plan and provision, and it is the best decision I ever made, apart from my decision to follow Him in the first place. Previously I had been comfortable in my life. I lived it as I thought best, and although there was a general sense of wanting to follow His direction, I still, to a certain extent, incorporated Him into the life I had built. I believe God is calling us to forsake everything for His calling. This may result in job changes, or loss of friends (even Christian friends), but we HAVE to be willing to forsake all for the sake of Him, and His eternal purposes. Since making the jump He has used my wife and I to build a foundation of the kingdom in our community, and I sense in my spirit that major changes are in store for us, and our community, all by His grace and working.
Like Paul stated, I do not count myself has having fully achieved the fullness of this idea. There are still parts of my life that are not given over, and I have made some major mistakes in the past 3 years, some of which I will financially pay for for the next 4-5 years, and have paid for emotionally for the past 2 years. These mistakes were made because I didn’t, in these areas, endeavor to seek His specific direction, and instead did what seemed right to me. He is gracious, however, and has provided for me and my family in spite of these things.
I believe that life is cyclical. The Lord has a direction He wants us to go, and if we miss it, He will cycle us back to give us a chance again, and again, and again! He is so patient! I encourage all of us to have our spiritual ears attuned to when He may be bringing us to a jumping off point, and have the courage to trust Him to take the jump.
